Mixed Emotions...

I am nearing the end of a doctoral program (but still one year of research and one year of internship to complete). My husband and I decided to stop preventing a year ago and began to actively try in November. I desperately want to be a mom even though school makes me incredibly exhausted...We said we'd reevaluate it in March/April because we'd be getting to the point where the birth would be too close to the start of my internship.

I tracked, kept temp, did opk's a couple months, took maca the last couple months and tried preseed this past month. I was really hopeful for March but a no go.

I have a history of endometriosis and the Dr said come in after 6 months of trying (so next month) to start checking.. but if it doesn't happen in April I really need to stop trying until I'm done with school.

Part of me wants to wait because I'm just so dang tired and enjoying the little freedom I have, but part of me is dying to be a mom and knows every exhausting moment will be worth it.

...... just needed to vent to people who might understand the struggle ❤️