I knew my husband was hiding something

This is gonna be a long odd post. I’m sure you’ve clicked because you think he’s cheating. He has cheated in the past but is no longer cheating. He’s a couple hundred miles away for work so our relationship relies heavily on text and phone calls.

For awhile now I had a feeling something was up. I didn’t know what. I just felt uneasy and unsettled. I had a feeling he had kept a huge secret from me. Whether it was he has slept with someone, was still cheating, or just something about himself that he had never admitted out loud. He’s been a little off. I could never figure it out myself.

He finally admits to something...he’s bisexual. This hit me as kind of a shock. I’m not upset by any means. I wish he had felt he could have admitted it sooner. We have 5 years under our belt and I just feel like I’ve been open and honest with him. But it all made sense now. Even things inside myself clicked. Why our marriage was falling apart obviously due to his cheating, but why I lost attraction to him, I’ve always felt like he was more feminine than normal. He’s definitely not the Alpha male type.

We stayed up until 4 am talking about everything. We were scheduled to go to therapy and will still continue to go. I just feel like a huge weight is lifted off my shoulders. I had been feeling so unsatisfied with him. Again, I need that alpha male presence. I admitted to him that I am not satisfied anymore and I think we both need to explore right now while our marriage is at a low. May or may not sound like the right choice. But to me it just sounds so clear..I need to explore and see if I am really married to the right guy. He wants to explore with a male. I know I will probably get backlash for this. This is our relationship and it hasn’t always been normal like the average couples. I am just so proud that I listened to my gut instinct and kept asking if he had a secret to tell me. I’m just so happy him and I can be that honest for each other. At this point we don’t want to divorce. But, we will have an open marriage for the next 6 months for trial I suppose. Very weird concept to me. Today I am supposed to start searching for a boyfriend. Today he is too. I’m glad we are doing this together. I just needed to openly admit this to someone. I obviously can’t tell anyone in real life as I feel they would judge us.