Gut feels guilty

Is this wrong?

Him to keep u alive

So school has been annoying I'm getting bullied and I asked my somewhat boyfriend Bryce (we broke up but still kiss) to bring me some rope he said no but if you tell me why I might give it to u I say to kill myself a few instagrams later I confess I can sing to him but I'm shy he says sing and I'll give you some rope I did after telling him the rope was for me or the bullies he said overkill to that he was gonna report this to the counselors but feared our friendship I told him ur fine I learned my lesson on that years ago do you trust me with what I'll do with it (rope) tbh no he said ur my friend I want you alive not dead ur my friend no I have no friends I replied going on to my experience with my old friends and he replied that's why u need friends like up top⬆️