I have always struggled with my body image and being body positive. After gaining 64 pounds during my pregnancy I quickly realized how much my body changed and I hated it. I’ve been battling postpartum depression due to my new size and the absence of my child’s father. Today I started a new job and didn’t realize that I needed a specific color of scrubs. I’ve really started to hate myself. I constantly have to ask myself am I really that big? Am I really that ugly now. I never would’ve expected this from my mom. I guess that’s what hurts the most.