confused and heartbroken

Cady

I went to the hospital with some very light dark brown spotting on Wednesday. My husband and the doctors thought it was probably nothing. I was 10 weeks, 6 days. They told me that there was no heartbeat and that it had only grown to 8 weeks. I had an ultrasound at 7 weeks, 6 days. Would they have not seen a problem? maybe they didn't because it was so early? idk. I had a D&C; on Friday and that was very hard, but I don't have any pain and hardly any bleeding, just spotting. I'm still spotting a little. At least I healed well and my doctor said I looked healthy, except for the obvious. The days that have followed have been even harder. I have suffered from depression for most of my life, but never thought I'd have to go through something like this, I'm afraid to show how much I'm hurting because my husband seems like he's starting to feel better so I'm just not talking about it, and I don't know if that's best for either of us. I'm scared to hurt him more.