I am so afraid that this will never happen for us. I am trying to stay positive but there are still so many unanswered questions that came up last month. I feel like the progesterone backfired on me, I feel like the Clomid and Pregnyl are not doing enough.

I hate the type of person it's making me into. I feel extra jealous, I feel bitter, I feel resentful and so so angry. Every time I see my pregnant co-worker or we speak with my BIL and SIL it's like someone is stabbing me directly to the heart each and every time.

I'm due for my follicle scan on Thursday, but had to call my OBGYN today to get him to prescribe antibiotics because I have a UTI. AGAIN AT THE SAME DAMN POINT KN MY CYCLE!

Before I started this TTC journey I started seeing a therapist to put me in the best place possible mentally before becoming a mom. Now today I feel those bad feelings seeping through and it almost feels like all the progress we made is slowly unraveling.

I don't want to give up, but I really feel like a should, I am so heart broken.

UPDATE: So I just used the bathroom (for the second time this morning thanks to this stupid UTI) and, the UTI symptoms are definitely back with a vengeance but when I wiped there was blood. I thought it was from the UTI which freaked me out ALOT, but the more I tried to wipe to figure out where it was coming from now I think I may be spotting. What the hell? Does anyone spot when they are on 100 mg of Clomid? My last dose was Saturday but I had been feeling dizzy most of the afternoon yesterday. I am definitely calling my doctor's office back this morning to follow up on my prescription for my UTI, but I am concerned that I need to actually see him. Thing is he is not in office on Wednesdays because that's when he does his deliveries. 😔 I am so stressed out about this its not even funny.