Not fair

Just had my 2nd miscarriage last week. My first was a chemical in January which I don’t really count as I wasn’t even 4 weeks when it happened.

Last week I was blissfully unaware. The week before I had an ultrasound and baby was looking and measuring perfectly however the heart beat was a little high. 188bpm at 9 weeks. My dr was worried even though I thought she was worrying about nothing she was right.

I had another ultrasound last Thursday to check that it had come down and sure enough my angel and grown it’s wings and left me the day after my 9 week ultrasound. I was shocked. Angry. Confused. Why me again. I’ve done everything right

I had the tablets to make me pass the pregnancy which happened quickly and wasn’t as painful as I thought it was going to be. Only bled for 2 days and now nothing since.

I have pcos and that was my third round of clomid. I have irregular periods so who knows when the next one will turn up.

I hate having to wait to try again. I desperately want a baby. It’s just not fair.

Anyway back to my private gyno in a couple of weeks to see where to go from here. I don’t ovulate on my own regularly sometimes if ever so going to not prevent it this month but not try either wait for my period that start clomid cycle 4

Thanks for reading xx