Am I a horrible person for this?

I suffered a miscarriage a month ago. it was an unplanned pregnancy and my SO was not thrilled or ready whatsoever for a new baby. I was the opposite. I was very excited. Ever since my miscarriage ive been so upset and have horrible baby fever. and of course everyone i know is getting pregnant right now including one of my close friends. When she told me i resented her soo much out of jealousy and i still do a bit. I just have the strongest urge to get pregnant again.. and i would but my SO isnt ready. so i just resent everyone i know that is pregnant..I dont even want to associate with my friend because it breaks my heart..