Hi everyone

... and a BIG thank you to Carli for creating this group. Like many of you, I really needed the group, and her message, these days.

My name is Alex and I’m 37. My husband and I have been married 12 years but only started trying last year. There’s a whole other story in there, involving job loss, a criminal subplot (haha but actually not funny), deaths in the family, financial hardships, impotence, a move, and more. I’ve carried a lot of guilt about not having a baby yet for a long time. It’s caused me insomnia, panic attacks and at one point a pre-ulcerative condition. Someone’s insensitive comment used to send me right back to square one.

A few months ago we lost our first pregnancy at 11 weeks. We found out over the holidays (Dec 27) which was pretty awful.

We’re doing pretty well but my cycle is a bit messed up now (ovulating really late, worrying every month when it’s late that It won’t happen at all, trying to make sure we cover the fertile period).

Anyway, you guys keep me sane some days. You all are great role models coping with things with grace and hope. So thanks.