Heart defect

Maygen

I just found out yesterday (at 25 weeks) that my baby has a small defect with her heart. Ive obviously been taking this hard. It is difficult to explain but there is narrowing of her aorta and there is a 50/50 chance that she will need surgery after she is born. They wont know for sure until after she is born and monitored. But I’ve just been so horrified at the thought that it isn’t going to be a normal birth like my first two children were. That ahe is going to be taken from me right away and I will not be able to bond with her and she and I will have to stay in the nicu. I hate the fact that I’m not going to be able to take her home with me. I feel like what is supposed to be a happy time is going to be sad and stressful. Maybe thats selfish, i dunno. I guess i just needed to vent. On top of it all i have to look into changing my ob bc I believe that this defect is because of being on my anti anxiety medication Effexor. My doc assured me multiple times it was safe and i could even breastfeed on it and upon this happening, I did research and found out that it is a category C (risk cannot be ruled out) and the defect is one listed from the medication. Im so overwhelmed with it all! Asking for prayers in all this so that my daughter hopefully does not need surgery and that everything works out for the best. Also if n e one knows n e thing about the Effexor situation plz let me kno!