I hate myself for even feeling how I do , it’s my best friends baby shower on Saturday and I’m throwing it for her but can’t help feeling I wish it was me that was pregnant . Don’t get me wrong I’m so happy for her and I can’t wait for the baby to be here and I have and will continue to be the supporting best friend some days it just hurts don’t suppose getting a BFN this morning has helped either right enough . Don’t actually know what I’m hoping to get from this post just feel I had to let it out