It's been almost a year since I was raped and I'm in so much pain. Everyone around me has noticed I'm acting weird and I am making everything really difficult in my life but I can't help it every little thing is hurting. There is no damage control anymore. My boyfriend who helped me through this after it happened is so amazing. But I can't take anymore I just want to end it all and he doesn't seem to understand everything is hurting all over again. Everything hurts it's exactly like how I felt when this first happened only time has passed so I should be over it. Right? So many women have been raped what makes my case , especially since I didn't take it to the police because I was so in shock and by the time I was okay I had no evidence, make me special? Nothing. I'm in so much pain and I don't know what to do. I hate myself and my body all of a sudden. And I'm so afraid. I'm losing sleep like crazy because I just can't sleep anymore. I'm running on 4 hours right now. And I don't know what to do. I've been workout out with my half brother and his friend and I've been happy but as soon as this month started I just couldn't take anything anymore. I literally want to die I don't know what to do. I feel like no one understands.