Scared to have Sex

Ok so I just wanna start off saying that I am in NO WAY completely innocent. I've given head a few times and tried to put it in (keyword tried 💀) but that shit hurt so bad and I wasn't even wet like that foreplay was ass everytime and it was in a car (Dont judge me lmaoo) ok so I've been talking to someone new and idk who the fuck I thought I was but my ass was all "I'm finna take that whole dick 👅" like I done did this shit before 💀. Who I thought I was 😭

and now we been talking for almost a month and we actually really like each other and wanna have a relationship but hes getting kinda impatient bec of all the shit I was talkin in the beginning and I'm like YEEET whoooo is dick idk 💀. and his shit BIG like he sent me a dick pic once and I was shook

Had veins poppin out n shit oh hell no 😭 and now I'm type scared

he straight up texted me last night like "I'm not even low I'm tryna fuck" and I was like k 💀

homeboy needa SKEERT SKEERT

outta here with that hulk dick bec now I'm having doubts like what if he dont like it or I can't get wet IM A WHOLE MESS

How do I calm my nerves 😭 and I dont want him to be like "that shit was ASS how u made me wait that long just to gimme that"

I would just clock him and leave 💀 someone fix my life LMAOO