Should I feel bad?

Is it bad that I don’t want to tell my husband when I find out I’m pregnant because I don’t want his family to know and I can’t trust him to keep a secret. The reason I do not want to say anything before anyone jumps to conclusions is because I had a miscarriage at 11 weeks last year and I don’t want to announce till I at least find out the gender. His family is already starting on me and I’m not even pregnant yet... 😔

Edit: I can trust him with everything else but this. He believes his family should know when I don’t feel that way...

He says things like so I’m not pregnant this isn’t my baby are you the only one who gets to make the decisions I have no rights when I try to say anything about wanting to keep quiet for awhile.