What would you do?/rant

Okay, first time posting...

A little back story, my mom had severe endometriosis. My sister and I were not supposed to happen because of it. I have shown signs of it as well, but never saw a doctor about it.

I had my son after 5 months of trying so I thought I was in the clear. My son is almost 2 1/2 now and hubs and I have been TTC for 13 months now. We’ve been fooled many times thinking I was only to be staring at a single line on the test.

I gave up a while back and just started trying to accept that maybe my son was my one and only and being okay with that. Despite almost my ENTIRE friends list on FB being pregnant and everyone asking me when I’ll have another or telling me my son needs a sibling. And I am.... or I was.

My body started being weird again. For the first time in I don’t know how long, my period was actually on time, but it wasn’t really a period. It was like spotting and brown. I’ve been having headaches, one was so bad that if I moved at all I thought I was going to throw up. I’ve been a freaking black hole, eating anything and everything. My back hurts. And my boobs have never hurt like they do now.

I hadn’t even thought about it, was just like “Wacko body, screw you too” until my husband said “You’re probably pregnant. You should take a test”..... I don’t want to take a test though. Just thinking about seeing another single line and being betrayed by my own body again makes me want to cry. I just want to be happy with just my son, but it’s like every time I try to, I get slapped in the face with the fact that I’m probably broken. And I know I should go see a doctor but I think I’m scared to know what they say... Hubs wants me to take the test in the morning.... would you?