how do you do it? he was my first for a lot of things. we lived together, had a dog and cat together, bought a Jeep together, and now my things are packed in the Jeep and I'm driving across the country to move back to my family. we ended on good terms, I was there for a week after the break up getting things together until I left yesterday. he helped me pack and what not. and as sad as we are about it, it's what needed to happen.

so here I sit, at 1am, alone, in a rest area along the highway having anxiety attacks and just wanting him. he comforts me so well and he's one of the only ones I've opened up to about my anxiety and gets it. I don't know how to do this. I feel so numb yet so hurt inside. I still have a couple days and nights ahead of me to drive before I'm home and I know this won't be the only tough night. I guess I just need some words of encouragement and positivity.

TIA❤️