well be married 3 years on April 18. but I feel like you don't love me anymore.. we have an amazing heathy baby girl. but other then that what are we to each other. we're so much different now. you keep saying when you meet me I was a whole different person that I would cook for you and I wanted things in life. but you my love were also so different from the man that lays next to me every night. the man I meet and the one I fall in love with the one I said I do is not the man I say goodbye to when you leave to work. see back then I felt the love. I knew you loved me by actions/words now you working and giving me the freedom to stay home with our child makes you think you don't have nothing else to work at. you come home tired I understand but what about us. I love you so much I wish you knew. sad part is I can fuck up everything. your an amazing man I wish you knew it more. you just forgot about me? right because only time you talk to me is because I fucked up on something or I didn't do something. I tell myself your tired from work. but I keeping telling myself that. and then my mind starts thinking when is he ever gonna have time for me then? I feel unwanted/worthless/ungrateful/unloved I I feel like sometimes it's better you begin alone. I don't want a divorce. I want a marriage were we can feel the love for each other. and not like how it use to be in the beginning because that's different I was starting to get to know you..... maybe it's me I'm the problem how you say .... right?!? what is that's wrong with me.. oh yeah I don't know how to cook I can clean shit right I say something and if it doesn't come out right lord help me I'm. fucked. in your eyes I can't do nothing right.. I'm scared I'll never be the person you want me to be for you. makes me wonder why you married me then. you can't even stand my family.. see I use to feel the same way about yours but you still made me try and get along with them.. maybe. we aren't meant to be. I don't understand to how you can stand there and say all this words that you know hurt my feelings and still keep going. I remember when it was you and i again the world... now it's me battling to myself telling myself im pretty I can do it I got this. because you my every own husband knows how to pick the right words to make me myself feel like a piece of trash. congrats for that I hope your happy. yet I still love you yet I couldn't imagine living a whole day without you. how stupid am I me myself still wants you you could do something so small and you maybe aren't even trying to be sure it romantic but I'll take it that way and I'm hooked I'm back into begin completely in love with you. I just want you to tell me you love me... that's what makes me so sad. that I'm crazy for you.

I'm just writing how I feel I'm not rereading it. thanks bye.