anyone finding it hard to be hopeful and feel connected to baby?

Kristen

I just had my 20 week ultrasound with a perinatologist and everything is perfectly healthy with this baby. The doctor said its probably always going to feel like for me "when is the other shoe going to drop" and she was so right. I lost my baby last May during labor and I cant seem to move past it. I always thought once I can get pregnant again, everything will get better. I won't find out gender because I don't want to get too attached. so sad.