I apologize not sure where to post this at

Billie

Okay so I had my first daughter in 2009 come 2010 I found out I was pregnant again, made it to 18 weeks my water broke I was on bed rest up until 26 weeks I ended up with placenta previa and placenta abruption so had to have emergency c section because infection got into my blood stream, meatless to say I never knew the gender of my baby for “it” kept its legs crossed the day I had the baby Jan 30 2011 I found out I had a 1pound 2oz baby girl who I named Gracie Faith, I used the line by God’s grace and our faith she will be okay, sadly my baby only made it ten hours, we’ll 2 years later I had a boy then 2 years after him I had another boy! So now I have 1 girl 2 boys and my angel, I just feel incomplete I want to try again I. Hopes I could possibly have my 2 girls and 2 boys. Am I stupid for feeling this way? I’ve never posted on anything but I have no where to turn for advice?