Went to the hospital on Friday. I had really mild cramping and a tiny spot the night before. As I’m in the UK, they sent me to EGU for scan. They found baby had not grown since 6 weeks (should be 10wks) and no heartbeat.

I have a scan next Friday to confirm but I feel like I already know they’re not with us anymore. I couldn’t think of the questions to ask while I was there.

I had a tiny bleed yesterday (just wiped and there was a smear) but nothing since. Luckily I’m holiday from work but not looking forward to having to tell my boss either.

As we were 10 weeks and I started to show, I told family and now I’ve got them excited over nothing. There is only a 0.5% chance that just my dates are wrong but I can just feel it.

I was getting really excited past couple of weeks and bought lots of stuff for baby and put it in storage and now I don’t know what to do. Feel so empty.

Could I have done something that made this happen? Would they have felt anything? How long would it take for them to properly go? I just feel like my body’s holding onto hope that isn’t there. My family say we can try again straight away as we’re young but I don’t know how I feel.