I'll be 20 in 6 month and I strangely I still haven't had my first kiss or an actual boyfriend or anything physically sexual. I understand that there are more bigger things in the world than this, but it's still bothersome. I keep wondering if it's because of my rbf (which I can't help) or maybe I'm just not pretty. Hundreds of reasons circle around in my head, and I can believe them all.

I want love, but maybe I have to accept that I'll never get it.