So basically I just don't feel it anymore I want to die I'll be happy no one else is I'm alive I'm unhappy everyone else is happy I just can't anymore I cut myself yesterday next time I'm stabbing myself in the neck I just want to be dead because I feel dead inside and my friend and boyfriend say they care about me and that's what hurts the most I care about them too I don't want to hurt them but these feelings are powerful enough to blind me from that only when do I look at pics of them (dating one had a crush on my friend was rejected) I reminded of what I love I've hidden feeling unsafe for weeks until now because I can't hold it anymore I could explode (yes I told someone) HELP ME