Struggling with TTC and dealing with the negatives 😔

Very new to this so hello ladies! Really hoping for some positivity and advice. Been TTC for 1 year this month and every month gets more heartbreaking and it definitely does feel like it runs my whole life, every time I get a cramp or backache I think “is this it?” Or “oh this has GOT to be signs of implantation” 😔 and I feel so silly when AF comes because I get so hyped up for no reason. You know when you just want it so bad? And feel wrong for thinking/saying it but you just know you deserve it too? We have our own home, a healthy happy relationship, a pet! And have good jobs. We both are so in love we just want to project that love into a little baby that is ours to protect and care for. It’s the only missing piece of our life puzzle. Starting to really run myself down, some days I sleep for 10 hours and other nights I stare at the ceiling wondering is it me?? All my friends have started their families and what’s more heartbreaking is 2 of them (no judgement by the way they’re the best ladies I know regardless) had their babies out of pure accident, met a guy one night and lead to an unplanned pregnancy, which is fine of course, I’m overwhelmed for her and beyond ecstatic for her little family but I can’t help thinking that should be us 😔 does anybody else experience this? I’m trying to let it happen naturally and not stress over it but I find myself crying on the bathroom floor every month. We’ve done everything possible at home and are really trying to stay away from the doctors until 2 years TTC, I need to know my body can do this, as a woman I need to know I’m fine. If that makes sense I know it probably doesn’t. I’m sure this month will be our month and today is just a bad day, I feel better already for getting that off my chest and can see I’m not the only one struggling with the same things. Ovulation was 2 days ago and we’ve tried our damn hardest so please send us baby dust and keep your fingers crossed! ✨🙌🏽 and I’ll do exactly the same for all you hoping for your BFP’s xxx