Hey ladies... honestly this is just a short “woe is me” dramatic rant. I’m just angry and hurt and confused. I’m jealous and I hate myself for it. I’m angry at myself for being jealous of my family. My three cousins just had babies, my step sister had a honeymoon baby and is due with her second this summer, my step MOTHER IN LAW just had a baby and two of my fellow employees are pregnant. I can’t handle it emotionally. I’ve always been the nice thinks of other friend but I can’t find it in myself to feel any joy for them! Instead I feel hurt and I feel ANGRY?!

I know I should be happy but I just can’t. On Christmas my sister in law announced her pregnancy and I could NOT hide it at all... like the mother in law totally caught on...

I have four nieces and a nephew on the way.. I’m a teacher... I’m surrounded by babies and can’t have one myself and it makes me so sad! I’m sorry I’m a bad person but I just had to let it out..

Easter with my family was TERRIBLE. I was surrounded by happy moms and bouncing babies and judge mental relatives asking “so when are you going to have kids?” “You aren’t getting any younger” “have y’all started trying for kids”

My birthday is coming up.. next week actually. All I want... is a BFP.

Sorry to waste your time. ✌🏽