I get insecure and want to argue with the air. I get annoyed and want to ignore everyone. I get scared and want to apologize for nothing. I panic while drowning on land, i give too many fucks before thinking of putting myself first. How do you put yourself first in a relationship? How do you love yourself and learn trust? How do you give paitence when you can barely put up with yourself. How do you work as a team when you don't want to depend on anyone. How are you happy with yourself without depending on him.. without picking fights just cause you can't express yourself.