I’ve been talking to a guy for almost 2 months now. The first month he’d message me all the time even video called every day. Entering the 2nd month the contact became less and less, he went on vacation with his son (he’s widowed btw) and contacted me when he could. Recently we have talked only a few minutes, 4 days ago he lost his grandpa and I’d call him to check up on him, I’d even leave him supportive video messages to which he’d respond to happily. Today he hasn’t contacted me at all but has been active on social media. I’m pretty set on guys and girls equally being the first to text/contact so I initiate but recently I’ve been feeling like it’s just me doing it (not just talking about the last 4 days either) and the only reason he’s even contacted me the previous days was because I was the one who called to check in. I really like this guy and he gave me the vibe that he did too, even told me he liked me but his actions aren’t matching up with his words. Today I broke down crying mostly because I know I caught feelings so things like that hurt. I’m blinded by the attention I got at first, making excuses for him as to why he doesn’t contact me, and thinking “maybe tomorrow he will” but I’ve been saying that for weeks now. I have lingering hope, but I can only hold on for so long, please any advice?