Tired !!

I'm so tired of this world!! This is not a suicidal post but honestly I want to give up.i can't say i had point in my life where I have been happiest girl ever. If I was happy , the happiness wouldnt last long. I feel like everything is out to get to me. I lost my motivation for school , my boyfriend and I haven't really been on good terms because he gets me angry and does nothing to fix it and when I try to leave he cants let me go... my mother been getting so tight like she doesn't allowed me outside & she says a lot of hurtful things when she's mad. she takes her anger out on me. I will go MIA for a week and no one will even check if I'm okay except for my boyfriend & my friend . I don't really have anyone . I just so tired of life and wouldn't care if it ended tbh😢.