WARNING:THIS IS PROBABLY GONNA BE A LITTLE LONG but ill try to condense. so i met this guy in July last yr. we twxted for a little bit but I just wasnt that into him. fast forward to december, he hits me up on Snapchat and at this point im just getting over a break up so im like ok cool we can hang out or whatnot. we we started hanging out and 'other things' we spent/spend everyday togther. so I'm getting attached and catching feelings. amd im assuming he is too. a month later im pregnant and he changes. he tells me he only wants to be friends and we start fighting all the time. but were atill together everyday. at this point hes using my car everyday. im babysitting his son ans giving him money. of course he didnt want the baby. we fought about that all the time. February comes and he gets evicted from his apt and has no where to go so he comes and stays with me. hes still pushing for the abortion and maintaing that he only sees me as a friend/family. so i listen to him and get the abortion (biggest regret of my life) he didnt even come with me my dad did. the day it happened i asked him if he could stay in and hang out he said no he had stuff ti do. so not o ly did i go thru it alone but that night i cried all night alone. but at this point I'm in love with him and he can do no wrong. im making excuses for him to my family and friends. I bought him a car and he gets super mad if i even ask to use it. ive given him so much money that he swears hes gonna pay back but im not holding my breath. so I found condoms awhile ago but i didnt say anything but its been bothering me cuz we don't use them so I'm like why does he have em. well of course he's sleeping with other girls. when he told me it was like a slap in the face. so now I'm hurt so i wrote a letter but i wasnt planning on him reading it but he did. in the letter it says you have to get out. after he reads the letter he says he needs a week and said ok. but that hurt even worse that he wont even fight for me. if we are so called best friends. I feel like what am i doing wrong. i gave him everything. and i was never good enough. I'm seriously wonderinf if im justvugly, unattractive, does my personality suck. whats wrong with me?. now am i tripping? i love him and he says he loves me but i honestly feel used. even tho were not in a relationship I feel betrayed that he slept with someone else. but technically he didnt cheat. I feel like im losing my mind and going crazy. am i tripping do i even have a reason to be mad?