Back in December I had a miscarriage at 8 w 4 days I was supposed to be 9 weeks but our ultrasound appt showed no heartbeat. I got pregnant 2 months later was supposed to be 9 weeks today and there was no heartbeat. We went in at 6 w 4 days and there was a strong one. Baby measured 6 w 4 days and was right on schedule. My HCG levels were good, I took progesterone suppositories, took a thyroid medicine they recommended, everything was going good. I didn’t have any pregnancy symptoms which had me a little concerned but then I’ve heard from other women who never have any either including my mom. We go in this morning and nothing. I’m completely devastated. I’ll be 39

Never June and just really don’t know what to do anymore. Baby was supposed to be born on 11/13 which is my brothers birthday. Why me???? I’m such a. Great woman. I have a bachelors in psychology and do counseling work w HIV patients... I would be an amazing mom. I csnthelp I got married to a great man late in life at 37 and am older. I dont know what to do anymore. I thought this was my rainbow baby. What happened? My dreams are shattered. My soul is shattered. I don’t know if I should even bother trying anymore or just give up. Two times in a row? When do I get a break? I have no health problems. Going to get D&C; Sunday. Had one last time too. They said the baby measured at 6w5 days and when I heard the healthy heartbeat it was 6 w4 days so it literally died one day after the last ultrasound!!! She said to get chromosomal testing maybe see if one of our chromosomes are off. What else do I need to do?? Do I need to go to a fertility or endocrine specialist?? I can’t take this anymore. I just can’t. I had a vision of what my baby would be like. I only told a few ppl I was pregnant I’m so embarrassed to tell them this happened to me twoce in a row they’re gonna think something is wrong with me. My husband is shattered too. Please help. I can’t do this anymore.