April the 7th me and my partner broke up we had been off and on back in 2011 broke up for 2 years and recently broke up again.i never thought it was gonna hurt twice as much as it did the first time. Why is it that we always end up falling for the wrong person and the person that is willing to give it he’s all and give you everything are the ones we run away from or see as best friends....

I opened up to my ex for the first time well I was starting to until he stared asking questions and he finally popped the question are you pregnant.o told him that I did not know and instead of him saying it’s okay we will get through this and I’m going to be there he said I needed to take pills and get on it fast ...he wanted me to get an abortion pretty much and I told him that that was not an option for me and that I didn’t needed him in my life and if I was pregnant that my baby was not gonna need of him....I still do not know if I am pregnant my appointment isn’t until may24. I have no words of how I’m feeling or what going through my head....and you know what is the saddest part that I am still crying for that dude and I want to be back with him and not because I might be pregnant but because I honestly felt something strong for him and I wish wish wish I did not have them feelings for him ....I literally feel like I’m dying and I don’t even have anyone to open up to because nobody knew about us ....

December 17,2017