February 28, day of my first ultrasound, i was so happy i was going to hear my babys heart beat for the first time, i was already counting the days! And finally that day came, i was the happiest person alive! I went to my ultrasound and i they didn't show me anything at all, all they said was you should check with your doctor today! I didn't know what was going on, later that day i recieve a call, it was my doctor. He said he had to see me that day and i asked if everything was ok, he said no it might of been a loss. At that moment i felt like i lost my entire life i was lost i didnt know what to do it was a horrible feeling! I ran to my doctors office, he said im sorry there's nothing i can do your baby has no cardio activity. Oh god i cried like never before i had lost my baby i also had lost my life. Why that was my question? I was so mad at life i was mad at god i yelled at him why did you do this to me what did i do to deserve this? If you were gonna take my baby away why did you sent him? Why did you make me feel so blessed why did you make me feel the happiest women on earth why why why,,,,, till now my heart is aching and i know for a fact my heart will never heal.... love you my angel baby👼🏻