Hi all,

My fiancée and I have been trying to conceive since last year. I haven’t been feeling well for a little while. My las period was strange, light but I thought it was a period. This month I started getting the worst pains in my breasts and I honestly had a feeling that maybe I was pregnant. But I put it to the back of my mind as I didn’t want to get excited and then be disappointed.

So 2 days ago I went grocery shopping and started to get severe stomach pains. I ended up on the bathroom floor seeing stars, sweating and thinking I was dying. My fiancée had to call am ambulance as I couldn’t walk. Getting to hospital I started to feel better as long as I was lying down. When I would get up my blood would drop dramatically and I’d feel awful again.

Then the best and worst moment of my life happened. The dr told me I was pregnant and then seconds later took the joy from me by saying they thought it was ectopic. I was put into acute care and waited for an ultrasound.

The confirmation of my ectopic pregnancy was shattering. I was rushed to surgery and don’t remember much until the following morning. When the dr told me my right Fallopian tube had bust, I had bled 2 1/2 liters of blood and had almost died absolutely floored me.

I feel extremely grateful to be alive but I’m left with the usual why’s and sadness. I feel like it’s a taboo subject and shouldn’t be spoken about. It’s really hard. The only good thing I’m taking and it might sound funny but I feel grateful that I got pregnant.

I’m scared moving forward and trying to conceive again. But I’m trying to be strong. My family have been very supportive and I’m grateful for them.

Thanks for taking the time to read my post

Amanda