6 Weeks PP as of tomorrow and hopefully my OB clears me for sex.

You guys....I’m so ready to be pregnant again. We want our first two close in age and then a gap between 2 and 3. My boyfriend said he’d stay in and not pull out as long as I tell him it’s okay. I want to be pregnant again so bad, I get so jealous when I see people postpartum and getting pregnant. We completely understand it won’t be easy raising two young babies...It’s barely easy with one. But we want it. But I also know I should let my body heal more We initially want to start trying in July this year. That just seems so far away 😭😭😭

I want him to stay in and not pull out but at the same time, I know I should wait 😭😭😭 I just pushed a 6lb baby out. I know my body needs time. Why is this so hard?😭😭😭