Fairly bitter today, and have been for a while.. this may be a long post but I’ll try and condense it. My “fiancé” and I have been togetherfor 2 years.. recently her paranoia and accusations have really been getting out of hand. I left for work 10 mins early one day (because I actually got up on time and got my shit together) and I was told I was going to meet up with someone at the hospital because I left for work early.. like are you serious?! I can’t do my nails or wear makeup for myself without being told I am cheating. We got into an argument not too long ago about fucking chocolate!! She asked if i ate a bar and i said yes, and I offered a piece to one of my techs and she had a fit! I don’t see how sharing chocolate is flirting when i am now the only LGBT person on my unit and most of then women are married! She even accused me of sleeping with one of my best gay guy friends! And will not let it go! She is super controlling- I became a nurse and she was upset at the hours I had to work for orientation (I had no control over that!) I also told her at one point that later on down the road I’d like to go back to school to become an APRN.. her first words? “I’m never going to see you then.” No support, but no encouragement. My social life went out the window because anytime I wanted to go out (which would usually be on weekends) her response would be “you really don’t care about our relationship, but go ahead”. I missed out on many opportunities, I even went from a solid coded position to casual so I could be around more for her.. I missed out on my PTO cash out because it happened right before my 1 year mark at the hospital.. I lost out on over $1000! She lives 20 mins away from me, which is ok except I don’t have a car.. so I’ve been using Ubers for the past year since I’ve been working at the hospital which can run up to $20 to and from work.. times that by maybe 2-4x a week and that’s enough to buy a car!! We were great before but I want more out of life; marriage, kids and traveling.. she HATES kids and says she’s content with life.. I feel like a caged bird.. I don’t know if it has anything to do with our age difference (I’m 25, her 35 now) or it’s just her insecurities and mental health issues... I just can’t take it anymore and I don’t know how to end this. She says I want more in life (which I do) and she’s holding me back.. I don’t want to admit it.. but it’s true.. and recently she lost one job and got a new one but it’s a pay cut and she’s struggling.. I had to sell my pink concert tickets to help her, but I’ve never gotten any help.. there’s so much more but I think I’ve bored you all long enough.. any advice would be appreciated. If not, thanks for just letting me vent ☺️