I’m just sad. I have the absolute best baby, although he loves to fight sleep and wakes up every three hours. He’s an amazing baby, hardly ever cries unless he is gassy or during bath time. I have a great boyfriend but he works a lot. We both work at the same place so I understand work can be demanding and the long hours are necessary and I’ll be doing the same here in about a week (5 weeks PP) but I feel as if I’m doing this alone. He works 5am-6 or 7 pm some days and that leaves me and baby home all day and since I’m on maternity leave I get all the night shifts too. When he gets home from work he’s usually exhausted and doesn’t want to talk and wants to eat so when all is said and done he usually spends about an hour to two hours with our baby tops. I am grateful for him but at the same time I’m struggling. I’m struggling mentally because when I look at my son, I have love for him. But it’s not like I’m in love like I feel like I should be. I do everything for him, feed him, change him, hold him, all that jazz but I feel like it’s out of routine and a ‘need-to’ basis. I want to feel the motherly love I’m supposed to have, the in love feeling I see all these moms post about and I just don’t. Idk what else to do, I don’t want to harm him or anything crazy it’s just I don’t feel attached to him like I thought I would. I feel guilty because I do have a great support system, a great boyfriend, and a great baby. But I’m just not a great mom. 😔