it was midnight and we were still up (he was playing games with his friends), me still doing work.

he said nothing.

the day goes by, still fucking nothing.

now he's sensing that something is "wrong" with me so he keeps asking me whats up.

i say nothing but i am just SO MAD.

i'm not asking for a lot, i am not asking for flowers or whatever. our finances hasn't been a breeze and I would be just really happy with a happy birthday wish but no.

you know what hurts me the most?

my friends left me coz they don't like my husband (they had left ever since he was my bf); because of him, my family resented me too, so I'm not really in a good relationship with my family anymore.

I keep reminding myself, I deserve to be loved.

A fucking pathetic thing to say to yourself on your 27th birthday.

The worst part is, all I feel now is regret.

And I promised myself to never regret.

I just want to cry.