Confused upset happy, mixed.

My boyfriend is always said this to me,

“ I’m gonna apply army soon “

He knows I don’t want him to go to the army. But in other side I’m happy if he’s happy. But also I’m not sure if he will be happy with that. We live together for more than 6 months, it just hurt my feeling when he said it.

He keep asking “would you allow me?” And i said no no no and asking why?.

I feel like he just want more attention from me to saying no or yes.