I’m losing feelings for my husband

I’m not sure how to save my marriage, or if I even want to at this point.

I guess I’m just so bitter towards him.

I had to have a medical termination at 15 weeks. That was my second pregnancy, he went to no ultrasounds/cvs test, or my termination. The baby had t18.

I was devastated. He kept telling me everything happens for a reason and he doesn’t feel sad about it.

He left on a whim today to go up north with our friend group until Sunday late.

I’m so bitter because I feel like he doesn’t need the break. I do everything.

I’m having a metal break down.

He left me 100$ for groceries for my son and I.

I am just so done trying to be the one to save our marriage, I feel like at thing point I have nothing to gain but nothing to lose either.

* I have talked to him about this, ends in him getting mad every single time so I need an outsiders perspective