Ok so today I’m really missing my abusive ex, we broke up a month ago and we have court next week and I really regret going to the police because regardless of what he did I still love him but I know I need to let go. We’ve been back and fourth together but I’m done this time I just idk feels like a relapse I just wanna talk to him.. I just miss his hugs when he did hug me. Maybe I’m crazy but he was still my bestfriend things got crazy between us. I know I deserve better I just really miss him. I’m just venting I’m sorry guys.