Don’t know if I feel upset or relieved.

I have two kids from pervouis marriage and just married again on Xmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> and husband saying I wanna go on holiday I haven’t been in 10 years I wana enjoy and if we have a baby we can’t go noonewill look after baby So he’s made it clear feel he dont have any kids 💔💔💔💔💔💔