I’d like to find a boyfriend but I have such high standards and even if a guy meets those, sometimes I go on a date and leave and just feel like, “nothing was wrong with him but... eh” idk, I feel like I’m looking for some amazing spark that’s not likely to really happen. I had it once with my ex so maybe now I subconsciously look for that in new guys? Idk, it’s just frustrating because I really do want to meet a guy and be in a relationship but even when I’m aware of this I just feel like I’m convincing myself to like someone I really don’t, which isn’t fair to them or me either. Sorry this is so long!