Drained

I feel so hopeless right now.....

I am a 19 y/o full time student (17hrs) and part time worker

About to finish EMT class and taking my final tomorrow

I’m sick

I can’t sleep until FOUR IN THE MORNING AND WAKE UP AT 8

Have CIC (Chronic Constipation)

Hiatal hernia

Inflamed Lymphnodes in my abdomen and chest wall which is apparently effecting my colon somehow

Esophagitis

My stomach is extremely rigid and painful to touch or move on my URQ and there is weird twitching

I have stupid staph on my inner thigh... it hurts when I walk..

I have a disgusting COLD SORE and of course I just found out today I need URGENT surgery to get all my wisdom teeth out next Thursday in an Operating room with general anesthesia and they will have to cut a part of my jaw bone

The day before my surgery I have my skills test for school

I have no friends

My boyfriend and I been arguing constantly and haven’t seen him in two weeks because we are both busy and he is going through his own hard issues from his past.. (today he called saying how much he hated his mom for going to prison and choosing drugs over him and crying about how sorry he was because he felt guilty for having sex with other women before me.. which I never shamed him but he feels as a Christian man that he has betrayed me.. even though it was before he was a Christian or before we met)

My dad has had his crazy episodes with drinking to much alcohol

I’m anxious and scared about my life. Idk how to do all of this + work + school. I’m tired and exhausted.. I know people have had worse. I respect that people can be strong through rougher times than me. But I feel like I cannot handle all this