First of all, scared is an understatement. Im petrified that I might be pregnant. My husband and i have been trying for 13 months to conceive, falling pregnant January 2018 and losing our baby only days later was super heartbreaking and I promised myself the next time I get pregnant, id be super careful and super ready. At that time I had no idea that the pregnancy AFTER a miscarriage is literally terrifying! Amazing, yes. But still scary as hell!

WOOSSSSAAAAHHH!!!

okay, now for the incredible list of symptoms that ive been TRYING not to spot every 5 minutes.

I've eaten almost everything in my pantry. Im craaaaving spicy foods, they give me regrettable heartburn but its all i want. I ate my chinese, my husbands food, two containers of pringles (one spicy of course). Then I was still starving...I felt a tad bit of shame lol. Just a tad.

I'm never this exhausted, ever. Some nights i can't sleep, but im exhausted. Hot flashes, nausea without vomiting, running to the bathroom every hour or so. Vivid dreaming hasnt been fun. Both of my pregnancies with my girls, I had the worst nightmares. Last nights dream was too disturbing to even want to think about it. I can barely breath. Simply walking and talking gets me winded like I was running track. Bloated and my boobs HURT! I can't remember a damn thing. And my husband is getting every symptom with me lol

TMI WARNING

my husband keeps telling me how much wetter ive been and anyone who has been pregnant before knows that you (sometimes) get so much wetter downstairs 😌. At least for me, it happens that way.

My mom had the famous Fish Dream thats supposed to mean someone close to you is pregnant...I didnt tell her it might be me but im guessing she has a strong feeling bc shes been callong me non stop about it 🙄🙄🙄

I've been feeling stretching pains in my abdomen. My belly has been SUPER itchy. I was crying uncontrollably for days last week. Just random outbursts of tears.

Don't confuse my fear with me not wanting to be pregnant. This is all ive been praying for since my husband and I decided it was time to try. This fear, I hope, will only be temporary.

***I'll update once I get test results.***