I finally found out the gender. It's a boy! And he has been moving crazy.. And I finally felt him kick from outside. That's when I realized he was real..

I'm giving him to a family, and we'll be having an open adoption. I'll get to see him and be in his life.. But it's getting hard, I'm already so attached. But I know I can't provide for him, I don't have the money or resources. It's the best. I really hope I get that planned c-section :-(.