Really lost

Idk what to say but these past few days I've been feeling like shit I just wanna aughh I just want the world to stop for a sec and my period is NOT helping either having horrible cramps and feeling crappy isn't helping with my depression I hateeeee my period i hate it ever since I got it it hasn't given me anything but trouble if they weren't so shittt and painful I'd enjoy having them but augh not only that my back hurts like hell when I get my period.i don't know how this depression post turned into a period one but I just wanted to say that I feel alone and hopefully I'll feel genuinely happy one day