Hi, guys. I am only asking this here because I have nowhere else to turn. I can't even go to a gynaecologist so please don't suggest that I go to the doctor's. Five days ago, I had sex with a guy I've been fooling around with. He's not my boyfriend and we only like being physical with one another. So the other night, we had sex, I insisted that he put a condom on (which he did) and the first thrust felt like how I'd imagine a knife would feel like in my vagina. I didn't even realize I was pushing against his legs to get out of me until he'd tell me "don't do that". I was also screaming, which I have never done out of pain before because I don't like looking like a little bitch. Normally I have a high pain tolerance. He thrusted inside me 4 or 5 times more. They all hurt as much as the first thrust. Now 5 days later, I'm still bleeding, not as much as the first and second day but still bleeding a little. Also my period ended almost 2 weeks ago. My vagina still feels swollen or tender. I feel like his condom made it extra painful because it felt abrasive. I'm 22 but I'm from a country where I cannot talk to people about this. Please tell me how to make it better or heal faster.