I just need to vent...

I slapped my daughter tonight. On the leg. Pretty hard to be honest. She was throwing a fit and kicked me right in the nose, and it was just my immediate reaction. I know I shouldn’t have; she’s young, she didn’t mean to, hitting creates trauma... whatever you believe, I KNOW. I was beaten nearly my entire childhood, and I have never once intentionally laid a harmful hand on her, or even thought about it. I’m tearing myself apart for it. I love my baby, who’s not such a baby anymore... and I feel like a failure. I’ve been so stressed lately and I let it get the best of me. I just can’t stop crying... and as I’m holding her as she sleeps, I hope and pray she wakes up and still loves her mommy 😞