Lost...

I don’t know what’s been happening to me lately. I’m never happy, and I’m always in such a sad mood. I also feel as if I was a bore around my friends. Don’t get me wrong they’re super supportive and tell me I can talk to them, but at the same time the one friend that’s supposed to “be there” for me put me down all the time. I’m always feeling as if I’m this retarded person because she always tells me to “shut up” when I try to explain something or she tells me that “I’m dumb”. Recently I was in a situation where I told someone what I wanted to accomplish in my future and my “friend” kept questioning me (repeatedly) if that’s what I wanted to do. She even told me “you know they only take the best right” which made me feel even more like a air head. Everyone’s changing around me and the people who said they would be there make me feel as if their not. I don’t know what to do, or how to make my self happy again because I’ve been isolating myself from everyone.