Can anyone relate?

I’m not looking for pity through this post, but it has been on my mind a lot so I thought I’d put it out there any maybe there is someone who can relate. 2 years ago my best friend in the whole world committed suicide. It’s not like you would imagine: a person crying all the time, living in darkness, isolating themselves from others. Rather, for the most part I think I have been coping pretty well. Yes, I still cry sometimes when I hear a certain song or get upset when I think about the things we will never do together, but I cope. However, lately, I’ve been having these moments where I almost go to text her something like “Hey, let’s take a trip” or “Any plans for this summer?” And then I realize I can’t. I can’t text her because she is gone. It’s like for a moment I’ve actually forgotten that she’s gone. How is that possible when she’s been gone for 2 years? Anyway, I just figured I could share and maybe someone out there can relate...