Has anyone lost a parent?

Today is the anniversary of my mother’s death. It’s really hitting me. She’s been gone now for 26 years. I was almost 4 when she passed. I’m the same age now as she was when she died and my second is the age I was . He’s so innocent and pure and i can’t imagine leaving them. It hurts me more now as a mother then ever before in my life. I’m pregnant with my third and I miss her, I want her advice, I’m saddened my children won’t know her. 😥😥 it’s been a rough day.